Right now I’m writing this, dinner is in the oven, I have a drink that Brady is determined to spill, so I have to keep throwing his ball in the opposite direction, I’m having multiple text conversations, awaiting my turn in Words With Friends and Trivia Crack, the TV is on ESPN game but muted because I’m listening to The Internet’s “Just Saying/I Tried” on the stereo. (Somewhere in America, National Grid is still twerking). I’m able to multitask, I do so from the time I wake up, I do so at work, and now that I’m home. This isn’t anything special, we all multitask, its simply inefficient to focus on one thing and solely that one thing at a time. Except apparently, when there’s a story about black people being killed or harassed….then you must enter activist mode and remain there indefinitely, stay woke B. It’s perhaps one of the things that annoys me the most on Facebook outside of my grandparents having conversations under 4 year old pictures and seeing friends from college share memes from whatever Right Wing nonsense page, every day somebody’s cousin makes a meme about a tragedy in black America and something else that we are being distracted by.
This week, its the tragic MURDER of Sandra Bland and the rap “beef” between Meek Mill and Drake. Now, on Twitter I gave my thoughts on both matters. My heart broke watching that dashcam video, I’ve spoken before about a time I got sassy with an officer, and I think about times even my sisters had. We’re human we have emotions, we react, and it’s terrifying to think one of us could lose our lives if we dare show them. I also believe Bland was murdered; there’s no way a woman over 6 ft tall could physically hang herself with a trash can liner on a wall that’s shorter than her. Even if you believe that fallacy to be true, you can watch that video and see she had no business being in jail with a $500 bond in the first damn place. I also opined on the Meek Mill/Drake beef, Meek looks foolish and I think like authors, artists reach a level of prestige and then start to outsource their work. Speaking on something as ridiculous as that doesn’t take away from my desire for justice for Bland’s family. I can live tweet an episode of Power it doesn’t make me less aware of Kindra Chapman, an 18 year old girl who also “committed suicide” after spending a night in a holding cell for taking a cell phone. I’m painfully aware of a lot of things going on and at times it’s just….exhausting, being angry and hurt and afraid every day. Sometimes I rather just watch Ballers and escape for a few. And I shouldn’t have to feel guilty about it. So one of yall go get your cousin with the distraction memes.
What is a distraction is people going off online about how everyone else is turning a blind eye on something they themselves just learned about minutes ago. Time spent attacking others is a distraction. It’s like black people aren’t even allowed to compartmentalize, you got to #staywoke incessantly and damn if you want to just make fun of rappers, listen to ratchet music or debate sports. There’s this expectation to just be “on” all the time and it’s tiring. Perchance some people are able to shoulder that burden 24/7, I am not. I’m able to suffer in silence for a little bit, take my mind off and try and enjoy a distraction. Lord knows there’s only a limited time until there’s an announcement of no charges being filed or someone else is killed.